what do i do with myself now?

so you've probably noticed a lack of posts from me on this studio journal thing.... the reason being the 15 hour days we have been putting in non stop for the past couple of weeks. honestly, i can't remember a time in my life when i've worked this damn hard. i was talking to brian mcternan this morning and he was telling me about some friends of his who did the entire warped tour in their van... when all was said and done, they said it was the best and worst time of their life. i feel like recording this record has been somewhat similar. we've all put everything we've had into this record, and we've been doing that for 3 weeks straight. it just takes so much to be so absolutely passionate about something for so long - non stop. this record also seems to be representative of so many decisions and changes in our lives. to get where we are right now we've all put everything on hold. we've sacrificed our relationships, our friendships, our lives.... and these past three weeks have been the extreme example. i think i've talked to my friends/family back home maybe once or twice since we've been here.. this record has been everything to all of us since we started. over-tired, stressed and anxious, these have been some of the best weeks of my life. now we are done with tracking, and it's time for us to give mike his space to mix the melodic clutter and chaos that is outsmarting simon. it's so bizarre to be able to sit back and not have something to do. as absurd as it sounds, relaxing might just start to stress me out. thank you to my three best friends for being a part of something so amazing as this record, and thank you to everyone who has supported us through all of this and made it possible to be where we are today. you all make me so happy to be alive...